Alright, let's try this again.

It certainly has been a long time since I blogged.

I think what I'm going to do on here is chronicle all aspects of my attempted self-improvement. There are all kinds of blogs written by people who are already doing pretty good, and they'll recount anecdotes from their struggle up to awesomeness. I think I'll actually just blog to everyone about the steps I take each day. Maybe some of you guys can improve your life along with me and we'll see how it turns out.

So first off, let's itemize what all I need & want to improve on.

1. Generate income in a measurable, livable amount.
2. Get over my socially crippling anxieties & stagefright. I don't work out cuz I fear looking stupid in front of my 2 year old daughter. Seriously, that's fucked up.
3. Lose about 60 pounds. Okay, i don't have a scale, so let's say... get back down to a size 10. I'm currently a size 18.
4. Stop being lazy and keep the apartment clean every single day. It really is a mess. I never vaccuum, the windows are gross... ugh. I'll tell you all the apartment's condition on this scale: Immaculate/Nice/Good/Could be better/Pretty messy/Very Messy/Filthy. It's usually not any higher than "Could be better"... it almost approaches "nice" when there's company. I really need to organize too.
5. Figure out the whole makeup, hair, and clothes thing. I mean I look pretty crap for an artist with a sense of aesthetic, you know? I should be doing better than this.
6. Don't spend too much time on the computer.
7. Figure out my potentially brilliant business idea. See, the thing is, there's one key component for it that I can't figure out how to do. If I can figure it out, honest to god, it'll change the world. Or at least the particular industry it's involved in. I won't reveal what it is. For the remainder of this blog, I'll just call it "Idea Number Seven" in all capital letters when & if I ever make progress on it.

So, throughout the course of my life, or the next few years, I'm going to tell the whole world how lazy I'm being or how great I'm doing. Over the last few months I haven't made much progress at all - my life is really no different than it was four months ago. That's inexcusable.

Considering the fact that I worry about what people think of me, I think this tell-it-to-the-world approach will work. It's like Bridget Jones' Diary but no romantic drama! :)

Plus, hopefully I can inspire other people to do better in their lives too. Cuz I'm sure this isn't going to be as hard as I've been worried it'd be. Maybe other people will read this, think "hey, I can do this too", and then do it because they're not so worried or scared anymore.

Wish me luck everyone. :)

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DELI MEAT'S STATUS REPORT (I'll update this every month or week or whatever):

1. Income: $0/month
2. Things I did in front of other people today: 0
3. Current size: 18
4. Apartment Condition: Pretty Messy
5. Didn't do any making-over today
6. Time Spent On Computer: 9 hours
7. Idea Number Seven status: On Hold