In Search of a Cure for Laziness

Forgive the nature of this post. I'm not trying to be preachy, I'm mostly just yelling at myself.

We lazy people need to get off our asses. There's no cure for laziness except to NOT BE LAZY. What have I done today? I stayed on the computer all day, justifying it by saying that my boyfriend wasn't doing anything, so why should I? That's just defending bad behavior with someone else's bad behavior. What happened to the me who got pissed off at people who did that? Yes, some help with cleaning & such would be nice, but I don't desperately need it. It does, however, NEED to get done.

I do too much self-analysis and not nearly enough actual DOING. I need to DO things or my life will never get better. I like the feeling of a full day. It makes it easier for me to sleep (I'm a TERRIBLE insomniac these days and i'm almost 100% certain it's because I do nothing all day). It gives me some memories to think back on. There is absolutely nothing bad about a nice, full, complete day, except for the fact that I've had to leave the safety & security of my messy, awful apartment.

People are creatures of habit, and they do what they can to avoid personal injury. But when your habit is doing nothing, and the "personal injury" you're afraid of is nothing more than the inconvenience of standing up, you have an issue.

My grandmother said something interesting to me on the phone yesterday when I talked to her. She said, "Considering the amount of work you've done in your life, you're doing pretty well. But you've hardly done any work at all." I was imagining how wonderful & awesome my life would really be if I was actually doing that work.

Look at how resourceful I've been! That is one thing I really don't need to improve on. Because I've always avoided doing too much work, I've gotten to the point where I don't feel like ever doing ANY. I think my life would really turn around and improve by great orders of magnitude if I stopped being lazy.

I don't even like lazy people. Lazy people infuriate me. How did I become one? :(

Well, I'm stopping it. Starting right now. I'm gonna go do laundry or something. Something that needs to be done. :)