Thoughts on Weight Loss

I'm just gonna be rambling here cuz it's a thought that just came up in my head.

Okay, I weigh about 200 pounds. I dunno exactly how much (again, I don't own a scale), but it's somewhere around there. That's kinda high but when you factor in my height (about 5-foot-10-and-a-half), it's not morbidly obese. Just kinda puffy. My blood pressure is at a very healthy level (121/73 last I checked), and I don't have any issues with cholesterol or heart problems. Despite my lack of associated health issues, I still want to lose the weight. Does that make me shallow?

Well, yeah, kinda. Everyone has to be a LITTLE shallow when it comes to their appearance. Why? Well, last I checked, I'm not a tailor and clothes are mass produced for consumption by your typical shopper. I'm kinda funny shaped at my current weight. (Honest to god, all those "body type" things I read up on websites about dressing for how you look? Emphasize this, de-emphasize that... yeah. None of those sites have my body type on there. Seriously.) Clothes are only mass-produced to accomodate a certain number of heights, weights, and body types. I don't really fit into any of them. As a result, my pants are always too short, t-shirts bunch up where they shouldn't, there are literally no bras that will EVER fit me, and I'm not even gonna go into how weight has affected shoe-shopping for me.

On top of it, I'm eating like an asshole (see Wide Lawns on that). I shouldn't be doing that regardless of my weight. I eat like a selfish pig who eats only because it's fun, not because I need it for nutrition and energy. I've always eaten like that. It's rubbed off on the rest of my life too - I never do ANYTHING if I don't think I'm going to enjoy it. I figure if I can do some stuff I don't like, and then lose weight, maybe I'll be happier about doing it.

And that includes exercise. I won't exercise at all unless I think it'll be fun. So like, I play DDR and stuff like that, but biking? Running? Treadmill? Stair machine? BORING. So I don't do any of that stuff. Which is bad. Because I don't do any of the boring stuff, I'm horribly out of shape. I get winded too fast doing just about everything, which means the apartment is a mess cuz I get tired after picking up, like, ONE freaking thing. That's not right.

So. I'm losing weight for two reasons. One, because I need clothes that fit me, and when I was thin, it was easier to find said clothes. Two, because I need to be a more efficient & less lazy machine. I wanna be badass at some point. I'm certainly not on track for that right now, you know?

Anyone else who's fat because they eat like assholes & are just plain lazy & easily bored, you should follow suit. Even if you're an otherwise healthy individual. The good habits will rub off on other parts of our lives and we'll be better people for it. :)